Brocas the Kinky Clown

Introduction

I had an absolutely mindblowing interview with Brocas the Clown. I genuinely didn't know that I was going to get somebody to speak about a clown fetish and on top of it all, be so frank about it. It is like a dream come true for me. I wanted to do an episode that would pay tribute to Red Nose day, but I also wanted something that would be entertaining, electrifying, and a little bit uncommon. In the past I had done quite a few episodes that were predominantly about domination and BDSM, so it was imperative to the show’s success that I add a little bit of a variety for my listeners. And hey, what better way to do that than with a clown? 

Why I chose Brocas

My love-hate relationship with clowns started when I first watched the film "It." Stephen King changed the picture I had in my mind of the once happy party clown I always envisioned as the special guest at my birthday party. As I got older, I became involved and very devoted to the study of criminal psychology, where John Wayne Gacy repeatedly popped up as one of the most infamous and captivating killers to study. He was the nail in the clown's coffin for me and had finally solidified my extreme fear of clowns. I am often drawn to what I fear most and would find myself watching hours and hours of menacing clowns playing bloodcurdling pranks on people on Youtube. After viewing these clips, I would find myself tossing and turning for days on end without so much as one night of calm, unflustered sleep. The feeling of enchantment and horror became like a drug to me. I figured the only way I was to get over my fear was to ultimately face it head-on. So, I went in search of a clown. I contacted Brocas through a fetish site called Fetlife. I believe I typed in the word "clown" or something similar and he was one of a select few profiles that popped up. He immediately stood out to me and once I looked at his pictures, I was hooked. They didn't quite change my opinion of clowns just yet though, but I definitely enjoyed them for their remarkable artistic qualities. Right away I could tell that Brocas was someone who put a lot of planning into what he did. He didn't just do it because he wanted likes on a page - this was someone who was sincere about his love for dressing up as a clown – someone who cared about how Brocas was being presented to the world. I got the courage to message him. I waited about two days until he responded.

 

This was the conversation we had: 

Sara

"I find your profile to be fascinating and very well thought-out. How are you? I am not a creeper - simply someone who would love to know more about your interest in clowns. Hope you are doing well today."

 

Brocas

"Thanks for the message, Sara!
I'm sure you aren't a creeper :op
What would you like to know!?"

 

Sara

"Thank you so much for getting back to me. I'd like to know EVERYTHING. I am a Human Sexuality student and I have a podcast called Must Love Fetish on iTunes. I was wondering if you'd ever like to be a guest on my show? If you look at the podcast, you'll notice that I do very well and have all 5-star reviews. I love your pictures so much, by the way!!!"

 

Brocas

"I'd be happy to! I love a good discussion :)"

 

The Interview

I panicked. I was terrified. There is a difference between reading something in a book, compared to actually experiencing it in real life. When you are book-smart and you inform yourself about a fetish in that way, you don't learn nearly as much as when you put yourself in that particular fetishist's shoes. Brocas agreed to do the interview, but only if I promised to do clown make-up with him. We were both to be in clown-face for a video call. I agreed. I was rattled. I had no idea who to expect on the other side of that cam, but once his face appeared, there was this oomph of joyfulness and an amazing sincerity. Brocas made me feel so calm and he taught me in that short amount of time - the hour that we spoke on Skype - what life really should be about - that it is crucial that we stop taking ourselves so damn seriously. When I was doing my make-up before the interview I couldn't help but take photos and pull faces in the mirror at myself. It was exactly as Brochas had said - when you're dressed up as a clown, the real you, the unaffected you, the Id - that instinctive part of your individuality reveals itself, and it became obvious to me that mine hadn't come out to play in forever. For the first time in a long time I felt sad for myself. Why are we so sold on having to hide who we really are? With Brocas I felt uninhibited and I would like to thank him for that. I want him to know that he has taught me an invaluable lesson to take with me wherever I go. I certainly hope that we can all learn from his free-spiritedness and goodness.

If you would like to listen to the interview you may find it by clicking on the links below. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have some clown clips to get to.

 

Hope to catch you on the kinky side soon.

Love,

Sara xo 

 

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